Two years ago today I came home from my mission. I wrote back then about pain and healing.
One year ago today I was in a terrible head-on collision and lost my first child.
I thought I learned two years ago what it meant to be healed through the Atonement of Jesus Christ, that learning only to be outdone by what I have learned this past year.
The pain was too deep, understanding so far away, for any man or woman to help me get through it. It is ONLY through Jesus Christ and His Atonement that I could have been happy ever again.
I testified of that before and there were times that I doubted it--it hurt TOO badly, was so messed up for me to ever be whole again. I will still be missing my son for this life, but now I can testify (along with my previous testimony) that my Jax is here with me every day and that I can see him again.
And, just as my mission story ended with a silver lining that turned into a beautiful sunny day, this accident and the miserable dark months that followed it have slowly become brighter! My body although with a few scars that will never leave is just about evidence free. I have since become pregnant and given birth to the most beautiful girl in the world and Mr. Hamblin and I have grown much closer together than I ever thought possible.
I am happy to announce that I have experienced the first not-traumatic January 9th in three whole years :)
Happy Saturday everyone!!!
One year ago today I was in a terrible head-on collision and lost my first child.
I thought I learned two years ago what it meant to be healed through the Atonement of Jesus Christ, that learning only to be outdone by what I have learned this past year.
The pain was too deep, understanding so far away, for any man or woman to help me get through it. It is ONLY through Jesus Christ and His Atonement that I could have been happy ever again.
I testified of that before and there were times that I doubted it--it hurt TOO badly, was so messed up for me to ever be whole again. I will still be missing my son for this life, but now I can testify (along with my previous testimony) that my Jax is here with me every day and that I can see him again.
And, just as my mission story ended with a silver lining that turned into a beautiful sunny day, this accident and the miserable dark months that followed it have slowly become brighter! My body although with a few scars that will never leave is just about evidence free. I have since become pregnant and given birth to the most beautiful girl in the world and Mr. Hamblin and I have grown much closer together than I ever thought possible.
I am happy to announce that I have experienced the first not-traumatic January 9th in three whole years :)
Happy Saturday everyone!!!
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