Consider the Lilies

28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
29 And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?

 These scriptures, put very simply,  tell us that our Heavenly Father will take care of us.

This last week has been a dark one for me. For some reason (opposition in all things??) my pregnancies have come with some severe depression. I am unfortunately, no stranger to suicidal thoughts and despair filled days. One of the hardest parts of depression for me is my inability to feel any LOVE.

Well, last week I spent a few days at my kitchen sink doing dishes, crying, doing whatever we do at kitchen sinks. And every day I would look out my window and see something growing in our yard. First I though, onions? A leek? A tree? This thing just kept getting bigger and taller and straighter. Until Friday.

I finally walked out to see what this strange thing growing in my yard was and I found the biggest, most magnificent lily plant I have ever seen. 20+ buds are on this thing. I have my very own, beautiful lily in my field, a not-so-subtle reminder that my Heavenly Father is taking care of ME. I may not feel love right now, but I AM LOVED anyway. I am not, and will never be, alone.

Tender mercies come in all sorts of shapes and sizes, and they come when we need them most. Why else, and how else, would this lily be in the middle of my yard? Why would it bloom NOW when I need it most? God is truly involved in our lives and I am just grateful I had the opportunity to see this miracle.